16/05/11 - Coming together or falling apart?

I was wondering when all this would take its toll on my well being. Today’s list reads as a medical exam results: physical exhaustion? Check. Premature and possibly permanent arthritis on the right wrist? Check. Poor diet? Check. I can go on adding and a check would follow immediately. It is so easy to just give up, just turn the mac off and go to bed. But lately the verb ‘push’ keeps coming up in different occasions, almost as a sign: I’ve been watching Jo Frost’s extreme parenting guidance thing, and there was a single mom with 3 kids and Jo said, you’ll go to hell and back but you have to keep pushing if you want to see results. I like Jo. I trust her. If a mom of three can do it, I can do it. Even without a camera around. Or Jo, for that matter.

I did some shopping today; got a nice A3 box for the final outcomes to go with the black box I’ve been thinking of using for the objects. Got some nice paper to hold the postcards for the self project – I like how they turn out, they have a vintage feeling, I think it’s the corners, they bring to mind old photographs for some reason.

Went to ABC to get the chaos booklet and the CSMApp manual printed as well. Both came out a bit faulty though; I exported the pdf with a downsample option that made the photos really blurry then when cutting the booklet, the really helpful guy used a block of wood that left a mark on the paper. I’ll go back again tomorrow and re-print them. It was also good to know ABC can print acetate quite cheaply.

I’ve almost impulsively – not to say subconsciously - decided to use the black photographic box for the final outcomes and it’s starting to look good. I wish I could say the same for the photos my camera produces :/

The major thing that needs to be done, is the illustration for the cognitive mapping project. It’s so easy and can be done really quickly, but I don’t know what’s taking me so long.  Then I can print at ABC, buy the acrylic frames from Muji and put the thing together. It was suppose to be ready by Sunday evening and spent most of today’s morning in the Masterpiece meeting.

Huge success. To quote Dave, that’s bullshit. That’s how he felt for my project, which I guess he’s right but then again I wouldn’t go up to his face and say you’re bald. Combine that with the work presented by Olga or Inessa and it’s pretty fair to say the photographer in me was not happy this morning. And you don’t want to know how the designer in me felt when he found out.